i do not dance;
even when a song
creeps into my bones
in a way that makes them itch.
except i do, sometimes,
in secret,
when stars are the only beings
around
and still cannot see me
through my bedroom window;
which looks into a smokey yellow hallway
on the inside of my apartment building.
i drape an inky blue scarf
over my lonely mirror.
i make believe i can do ballet.
i trip elegantly over my curled toes.
i stand inside a doorway frame trying to roll my pelvis in its sockets,
something i’ve learned from the few times
i’ve left the comfort of my cave for the lonelier darkness
of that trendy new hole-in-the-wall.
and sometimes,
i keep moving,
until i break something, or am sweating-
and not in the glisten-y, sparkly way.
but most times,
i snap out of it too early,
remembering what i must look like to a third eye.
i fall asleep with a furrowed brow.
– with love, devonshiregrace